[Unfortunate] Thoughts

I have so many thoughts about this country that I love. But some have warned me against the writing of these thoughts. Although I try to keep my content positive and assure that I do not post controversial things or make generalizations, people still tell me that it could be interpreted in a bad way. Some of the most interesting things I come across and want to share and comment I do not post about, which unfortunately makes my blog rather bland and not as dynamics as the thoughts I have about Iran in my head.
There really is no place like Iran. Firstly, its society and government is like no other in the worlds'. But yet there is also so much beauty about the culture, the place, its people, and much more. To me, its not just a feeling of nationalism that's embedded in me, but Iran is a study that I want to pursue at the post-doctorate level when I am older.
But will writing what I feel jeopradize my chances of going to Iran? I didn't think so, but after some advice and research of people being jailed relating to Iranian media and computer matters, maybe I should think twice. But maybe I shouldn't. Because this is what I love to do.
And I realize, this is one of the dilemmas that many people living in Iran must face: some cannot express or do what they love to do. Freedom of speech, performing, are some things that they cannot exercise to the fullest. Although I do think that there are certain positive aspects to this. But this is an entirely different topic.
And so, as much as I would love to write about the most interesting of posts and my thoughts, I am in a dilemma. A dilemma I need to think about for a little while more.